I’ve known since I was a very young that I wanted to be a writer and a poet. I wanted not only to be a writer, but a famous one. A Pulitzer prize winner author. Writing always gave me so much joy. The power of words. One can relay a fury of emotions with just one word if chosen correctly. I enjoy talking too, don’t get me wrong! However, when I write its so much easier for me to complete a thought (no interruptions) and relay what I’m saying with clarity. Because I generally take more time on phrasing whereas when I speak? I tend to speak passionately. I often have no filter, straight from brain out of the mouth. Sometimes my words sting (because of truth) and sometimes they soothe (because of empathy), but I digress. As I grew up my dream shifted for various reasons. Some of the reasons are that I discovered the meaning of the words fame (I wasn’t willing to loose my center, loose myself) and propaganda ( its intimate relationship with the media). Plus, I discovered most real writers don’t see any profit. I wanted to be able to sufficiently support myself. Not be a world re-known writer centuries after my death . So, I allowed my passion and ambition to fall to the wayside. However every now and then I’d get an “itch” and I’d write. I have unfinished novels, short-stories and poems. I’d get through part of it and leave it unfinished. Knowing that something was wrong with it, but not able to identify what it was.
Proverbs 16:3 3 Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.1
I’ve always known that I have a purpose. Something more than just being born and dying. I felt it was something that would be life changing, to make a difference – I just didn’t know what that purpose was. I’ve always known it had to be something with writing and expressing. But writing and expressing what? I didn’t know. I would get tangled up in choosing between fiction or non-fiction, audience, marketability (would it be profitable) and acceptance (would people like it). Then one day (recently) my purpose was told to me clear as day evangelize through your writings. Now, when I heard this I was so excited! Right? I mean finally I knew, really, really knew without a doubt what my PURPOSE was, but wait Lord, I’m no minister! I am a sinner that repents everyday! Meaning, I am no saint. I’m still working on me (myself) and our relationship every single day! I am in no form or fashion perfect! I have not always done the right or righteous things. So the revelation was mixed with joy, fear and confusion all rolled into one. And Jesus told me to have no fear. Journal. Share and Tell my story. Shine my light for Him, which in turn will help others to find and turn on their lights for Him as well. Yes, I’m not perfect, but no one is, but by me sharing my story, my life, my challenges, my truths, that I can lead others to discover theirs and seek Him.
Psalm 138:8 The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord endures forever — do not abandon the works of your hands.2
Jeremiah 29:11 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.3
And that’s it. That’s all I want to do. Share my story, share the word, share how much God loves, and how he’s waiting for you to fully seek Him. Time is so short. It saddens and angers him, but time is very short and he wants to see your lights shinning bright. Anything I can do to bring a soul to God? Oh, I’m all in! He is so amazing! And patient! I can testify to His patience because I can be stubborn. But now that I’ve sought him out and I bombard him with prayer, and I listen not with just my ears but my heart and soul? I can’t take all of the worlds in all of the books of the world and explain what that feels like. I want you to experience it. So, if my little old silly, meaningless (to me, I don’t find myself overly interesting) thoughts, and life events can help you find it? Why wouldn’t I? I am here for the Lord to use me.
I get so frustrated sometimes though. Frustrated because it has taken me 34 years to listen. I’m telling you our Father is truly patient and has unconditional love. I’m loved without asking. I’m loved when I’m being disobedient, I’m loved even more when I repent for being disobedient and even more than that when I obey! I can ask for anything within reason and I get it because I believe He can do it. If I’m troubled and I pray for peace, it washes over me in waves. When I’m concerned or have questions He provides solutions and answers. I just can’t explain it. It is awesome and awesome is a vast understatement. I just know that through God all things are possible. That’s the best I can do on explaining it.
Romans 8:28 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.4
I’m not worried about what anyone thinks about what I have to say or write. I have no desire to be compensated (okay, not completely true, I think I did ask for spiritual, hugs, kisses and lovin’ just because I’m spoiled and love the feeling – smiling right now) and I don’t have a target audience. I’m just free to write my truth, my feeling, my thoughts and my love for Jesus! I pray that my post inspires others. I pray that my post saves lives. I pray that my post leads people to starting or re-kindling a relationship with God. When I share post on here it doesn’t revolve around scripture. Allow me to clarify. I don’t go through the Bible and pick out really great quotes or passages and then say to myself, “Oh, this sounds great now let me pick as story out of a page of my life and make it fit with that”. No, that’s not me. I’m not that complex. I pray to God about topics. I pray to Jesus about important subjects to talk about. I ask that if He has something that he really wants to me to talk about to put it on my heart and guide my words. All I do is go through my memories and share them. Some of the happy, sad, silly, angry, confrontational, debatable subjects, all parts of my life. And Jesus does the rest. He leads me to the scripture and how it relates.
Psalm 112:7 7 He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.5
‘I’m still reading the Bible. I’m not a master scholar in any book in the Bible. I am reading it and discovering new things and I’m just blown away on some of the things that I didn’t know, or that I didn’t previously understand. My main purpose of sharing all of that was to say that I didn’t want to get on here and share any story and not tie it in with the Lord – with scripture, – with out the Bible. I am no one, I am nothing, HE is everything. Look to him. I am just a vessel. I’m going to get a little off topic here, but have you ever been to a church or listened to a sermon and they had really good stories and inspirational input but did not ONCE mention the word of God? No seriously, like an entire sermon and not one reference to a scripture in the Bible. Blind people don’t see it. Blind people don’t notice it. Don’t worry, I’ll talk more about that in another post about Luciferian teachings. Also, the references that I list in my post are from the NIV version of the Bible. (edit: I have since updated my post to include KJV. For those readers to resonate more with this version due to it being closer to translation. Just hover over the footnotes numbers or review the footnotes at the end of the post) It is the version that I am most comfortable reading with comprehension. Also there are numerous free Bible applications (that offer audible reading) that can be downloaded on your phone available for anywhere access. I’ve also seen KJV Bibles at the Dollar Tree for $1. If you really cannot afford a Bible, please reach out to me and I’ll see what I can to do help.
Thank you for reading. Glory be to God for all his blessings, and may God bless you, and be welcome in your hearts.
- (KJV) Proverbs 16:3 3 Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.
- (KJV) Psalm 138:8 8 The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.
- (KJV) Jeremiah 29:11 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
- (KJV) Romans 8:28 28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
- (KJV) Psalm 112:7 7 He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord.